Lonely After

(album: Truth Or Consequences - 2020)

I was embarrassed when I knew who I was;
So wild and zealous, and overly down for the cause
I'm sliding under, diving back into clouds
We went running, you were leading me on
You lost your hope and I knew, it wouldn't last as long
I think about it, I'll think about it in time

I know that you say I'm just another one
I won't pretend you're the best
I see what you want me to see
(Whatever we're going to be)
And now I fall through your ceiling like you're the only one
Always the hardest to test

So why'd you want to make me lonely after?
Wouldn't try to break what's holding you back
We were on the hook to save you sinking
Back when you liked that
Don't you want to save your breath for nighttime?
Show me why it's hard to come around
I know that you've been full with anguish lately
Yeah, we were let down

I called your brother, he said we're serving him soup
Broke down my door to reclaim a small part of his youth
Yeah, you can hate me if it helps you get back
Another moment of impossible doubt
You wanted quiet but everything was just so loud
My memory's fading, memory fading to red

I can't play the game but I'm living like I won
Taking it all on the chest
Tell me I'm not on my knees
I'm dead in water beneath
And you're a sight to be seen and I'm falling undone
It's getting harder to sleep

So why'd you want to make me lonely after?
Wouldn't try to break what's holding you back
We were on the hook to save you sinking
Back when you liked that
Don't you want to save your breath for nighttime?
Show me why it's hard to come around
I know that you've been full with anguish lately
Yeah we were let down

Think I've done well, I waited on my soul
A weekend on pacific time, best I've ever known
Let's take it on, I'll take it on for you