This Ain't No Fucking Love Song

(album: What A Horrible Night To Have A Curse - 2001)

My crimson covered hands clutch heart strings newly broken
moths breed in my entrails hate washes through my fucking veins
friendship turns to disease afflicting the weak of mind and heart
you are the growing cancer eating at my fondest memories
7 abandoned years thwart all affection
a million whispered lies push fingernails into my palms
the knife slipped in pushed by the most familiar hands
I fell upon the comfort of your words
a flash of light taught me a lesson in betrayal
I fell upon the solace in your smile
7 wasted years boiling in vomit
I will erase you I will erase you from this heart
from my memory I cut away
you're just a name to me a friend is now a ghost
I will never give again
you have forsaken any faith I had in you
all the love I had for you
I am reborn Baptized in flame
Clean of your deceitful looming
friends are beneath me I can't face this pain again
I'll die alone But at least I'll know who loves me
I am a shadow of myself pent up in walls of human shit
annihilating anything that bears your name
I am a hollowed wooden shell made strong by that which I abhor
committing only to creating your demise
and so I pray for sleep and to see anything but red
all purpose has been drained from me
a friendship ends in pain morose claims my every word
all trust has been carved out of me
wasted years boiling in vomit
I will erase you I will erase you from this heart
from my memory I cut away
you're just a name to me a friend is now a ghost