So Happy

(album: The Sun - 2021)

Yeah, yeah

Ever since I've known you
You've held that key to my emotions
I open up to you
You're the drop of ecstasy that fills my ocean
Yes, I'm floating
One sip of you, one whiff of you, I'll sin for you
How can that double-edge sword
That'll hurt me and heal me be so irresistible?
It's that hypnotic craving
Got my wings like oscillating
How can something be so toxic
Yet be so fucking intoxicating?
And I know I'll forget this
And I wish I could bottle this feeling
But every morning, that message in a bottle
That I threw in the sea is lost from the evening
And I feel like hell, but oh, your spell
Is on repeat like a parrot talks
And I keep going back, yep
You're my perfect paradox, so
It's freedom
When I'm shot by cupid's demons
'Cause right now, I'm walking on clouds with you
Like I'm lucid dreaming, feel the breeze and

So I don't know why
I'm so happy, I'm not coming down
I'm so happy, I could die right now
Found religion in a deep breath
But I know I'm gonna forget
That I'm so fucking happy here right now

I see my little man's hands wrapped around Daddy's finger
I hold my baby boy up to the sky like he Simba
I know what it is 'cause now I know what is love
It's like you came down to Earth just show me what's up
Uh, in the car with my lady
'Bout to do the impossible
Yeah, in her belly is our baby
On our way to the hospital
And it's green lights all the way
I know the route I don't need a map
But I won't lie, I was petrified 'cause
Yo, your boy's bout to be a dad
And when you came out, I was speechless
Just to be alive is the jackpot
And if my lady's strength was a sports team
I'd be the cheerleader and the mascot
But that happiness is bittersweet
'Cause I know somebody that'd be so proud
Somehow peeking down
Man, I hope mum can see me now like

I'm so happy, I'm not coming down
I'm so happy, I could die right now
Found religion in a deep breath
But I know I'm gonna forget
That I'm so fucking happy here right now

I used to bottle my feelings
'Til I broke it, now I'm healing
From them days when just believing
Was a notepad and glass ceilings (Hey)
I don't got no fear to run from
Ain't nobody tell me nothing (Hey)
Far from perfect, but I love it
Yeah, let me tell you something (Yeah)
My Papa, he passed
Everything in my life stopped and just crashed
Numbing my feelings by topping my glass
Never worked for me, so I would just ask
"Why would you leave us? So much more to do" (Yeah)
He'd show up in my dreams and tell me the truth (Woah)
"Learn from my mistakes and I'm proud of you" (Woah)
I reply, "Okay," this what I'ma do (Go)
Instead of just sitting here, I'ma go get it here
I gotta look, I'll be damned if I miss it here
I wrote a song and my fans sing it crystal clear (Yeah)
And it's called "My Friend"
So every time that I touch that stage
I channel you and that love you gave
I'll see you soon, but until that day

So I don't know why
I'm so happy I'm not coming down (I'm so fucking happy)
I'm so happy I could die right now (I'm so fucking happy)
Found religion in a deep breath
But I know I'm gonna forget
That I'm so fucking happy here right now