I'm A Mess

(album: 4 The Last Time - 2022)

Don't know where I am
It's too bright to make sense
Empty cars, white lines
It feels like a parking lot
How many days or weeks
Oh has it been today
Feels like years ago yeah
Since I saw you anyway

But I do remember
The years of making do
No legal tender no
Just trying to make it through
And I do remember
The plans we used to make
They're the ones that I hold
And all that I take

Far away from the ones
Oh that I love
Far away from you
Something I can't seem to learn to do

And oh
I'm a mess without you
And oh
I'm barely making do
And oh
It shouldn't have to feel this way
Smile and wave, just pretend
It didn't have to ever end

Try to make sense of things
When you know it never will
Try to pretend it's worth
All the time we trade
Like there's a reason
But you know it isn't true
'Cause there's no reason no
To be this far away from you

Far away from the ones
Oh that I love
Far away from you
Something I can't seem to learn to do

And oh
I'm a mess without you
And oh
I'm barely making do
And oh
It shouldn't have to feel this way
Smile and wave, just pretend
It didn't have to ever end

And the time goes by
Slow slow and I
Can comprehend the things could be the way it finally ends

There's a reason
But you know it isn't true
'Cause there's no reason no
To be this far away from you

And oh
I'm a mess without you
And oh
Undressed at afternoon
And oh
It shouldn't have to feel this way
Smile and wave, just pretend
It didn't have to ever end

I'm a mess, I'm a mess
Shouldn't have to feel this way
Smile and wave, just pretend
It didn't have to ever end