She Said No

(album: Serotonin Dreams - 2022)

Stood together outside, I don't even know what
Was going through my mind, now I think it was love
I never knew I could find someone who I thought was dumb
But make my heart go ba-da-dum, ba-da-dum
And I was so scared for my life
But I said that I would rather try
And I'm pretty sure I'm out of time
And I throw my meds straight into the mud
'Cause it doesn't seem to help me when I'm falling in love
And my stomach hurts, but I don't mention the blood
I think I might need a doctor for the mess that I've become
Oh, I found it hard to breathe
It's getting dark out, don't you think?
Tell me or is it just me?

Then she took my coat 'cause it was cold
And we took pictures with her phone
She left her Polaroid at home
I texted all my friends, I wrote
That I was falling for this girl
Her eyes were glowing, hazel pearls
I told her that she was my world
And she said, yeah, she said no

Yeah, she said no
Yeah, she said no
Yeah, she said no
Yeah, she said

You probably don't give a fuck who I am
I don't blame you, I hate me too, but I can't
Do a lot to change it or the thoughts in my head
I am faceless, I'm nameless, I'm better off dead
That's too far, I'm so sorry, please excuse my mess
I'm so stupid, so worthless, I won't do it again
That I promise you, I'm just a boy with a pen
And a ukulele, is it not evident
That I'm broken, I'm frozen, I'm stuck in my bed?
I was hoping you'd open me up, but instead
My emotions took over my mind and I said
That I hate you, I hate that I wish you were dead

Then she took my coat 'cause it was cold
And we took pictures with her phone
She left her Polaroid at home
I texted all my friends, I wrote
That I was falling for this girl
Her eyes were glowing, hazel pearls
I told her that she was my world
And she said, yeah, she said

Yeah, she said no
Yeah, she said no
Yeah, she said no
Yeah, she said no