Waking Up

(album: The Strings That Tie Us Together - 2018)

I'm not one
For this and that
So there's no reason to question why
I always seem to lack
The will or determination
For any conversation

Dealing with you
And me
And where everyone seems to think
Where we should be
But I'm still stuck
Haven't had enough
Even if all of this is fruitless
I still wanna pursue this

It's right about now
I should be waking up from you
It's all I can endure
Should be giving up but if
Memories fade then I'm not waiting anymore

Woah, I can try but I can't hide that I
Realized what lies inside
But I promise I'm waking up
After this

Back and forth, here and there
We never seem to get anywhere
Like the questions we always pass off
To each other
It's a circle of yes and no and maybe
Call me cautious, call me crazy
I'm stuck at a crossroads of how far the distance
Should go

This feels one-sided, am I right
In saying that I shouldn't try
To get any closer
Than this?
Pull me close, push me away
But give me a moment just to say
That if you could give me a try
I guarantee, I don't lie
That I'll back off if it's not to your liking

It's right about now
I should be waking up from you
It's all I can endure
Should be giving up but if
Memories fade then I'm not waiting anymore

Woah, I can try but I can't hide that I
Realized what lies inside
Just give me one last chance, one last dance
It doesn't have to end up in romance
And no perfect night, no rose, no kiss
'Cause I'm waking up right after this

And if the dream's too sweet
I'll never wanna leave

It's right about now
I should be waking up from you
It's all I can endure
Should be giving up but if
Memories fade then I'm not waiting anymore

Woah, I can try but I can't hide that I've
Realized what lies inside but I promise I'm waking up
Shake me harder so I wake up
I promise I'm waking up
After this

A dream that you wish your heart didn't make