The Resurrection

(album: The Resurrection - 2021)

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It's Bugz
And see when I wrote this down and posted it through everybody's doors and that
I don't know where everybody lives any more
So hopefully you hear this

I couldn't breathe
But I been struggling breathing from the start
I got millions in the bank but still this grieving's in my heart
And the cribs are baby mansions still I'm struggling with anger
And I'm reading every night but still these books don't have the answer
And I know she died of cancer, and I know they took him when he was a boy
I feel your pain I see it when you're drinking brandy
Can't fix it, I been looking for somebody to fix me she needs tablets now and that's my sibling I know she's missed me, it would hit me
Remind me, did you say you got molested?
Just tell him he's forgiven now I need that off my chest
We're family, even though we don't act like we're family
I had to leave this message it's important for my sanity
The world was fading out as I was bleeding from my head
And its a shame to say it now but I didn't care if I was dead
What's a life without no family, its like a lung without no breath
And I know we may all live to regret
You don't know about these dark nights, in the studio with my feelings
I been reeling so I can stand by this message I'm leaving I have to say this
Pardon my lack of discretion, part of me died
This is the resurrection

Mama, do you love me?
Mama, do you love me?
Mama if you love me, overcome your addictions for me
And tell me, do you trust me?
And tell me, do you trust me?
And tell me if you trust me, overcome your addictions to pain
I can't lie, I needed you
I can't lie, I needed you
You were needed when I was bleeding, my heart bleeds for you
I hope we see heaven soon
I hope we see heaven soon
Cos if it's over without no closure, know I've forgiven you

I would sit with you for hours if I could
But the way you hate my fiancee for nothing isn't love
And the way it gets me mad its like you're doing it on purpose
I think about it to the point that weapons make me nervous
I don't call him Dad, I never call him thats what he deserves
And I would have him in my life but clowns belong to the circus
It was him that told me that you was on drugs
And I remember it clearly cos it was the first time I'd shot a gun
Boy drowned on me, I'd had the gang on me
Fuck about a burn a flame when your make it fuel for me
Yeah, and make it feel how I feel inside
You tried to ring me in the hospital to see if I'd died
I bet you didn't know that I had a clot
You never rang me on my birthday cos that nigga forgot
Still he tells people I'm famous and I left him behind
Fuck you niggas know about grind
You don't know about these dark nights, in the studio with my feelings
I been reeling so I can stand by this message I'm leaving I have to say this
Pardon my lack of discretion, part of me died
This is the resurrection

Mama, do you love me?
Mama, do you love me?
Mama if you love me, overcome your addictions for me
And tell me, do you trust me?
And tell me, do you trust me?
And tell me if you trust me, overcome your addictions to pain
I can't lie, I needed you
I can't lie, I needed you
You were needed when I was bleeding, my heart bleeds for you
I hope we see heaven soon
I hope we see heaven soon
Cos if it's over without no closure, know I've forgiven you

You don't know about these dark nights, in the studio with my feelings
I been reeling so I can stand by this message I'm leaving I have to say this
Pardon my lack of discretion, part of me died
This is the resurrection
Yeah