every time i close my eyes

(album: scared to go to sleep - 2022)

There's a dimension in the stratosphere
Where I'm meeting fans right before the show
And my name's right there
On Madison Square
And there's another with a couple kids
Stuck in the suburbs but I like it
And my name's right there

There on the mailbox covered in roses
There I'm somebody, somebody who doesn't think
Like I do now, I'll never know what I'm missing

Every time I close my eyes
I see a whole lotta nothing
Someone turned out all the lights
Now I'm a dead girl walking
Fucked it once then I fucked it twice
But you don't care, it's not your fucking life
I'll be the version of me no one likes
Every time, every time, every time I close my eyes

Every time I close my eyes
Every time I close my eyes
Every time I close my eyes
Every time I

Are there other mes that are up tonight
Maybe Chicago in the summertime
Reciting the beers on tap
Imagine that
I'm teaching English in a college town
Looking for something that I never found
And it all makes me sad

I'm there on the highway covered in roses
There I'm somebody, somebody who doesn't think
Like I do now, I'll never know what I'm missing

Every time I close my eyes
I see a whole lotta nothing
Someone turned out all the lights
Now I'm a dead girl walking
Fucked it once then I fucked it twice
But you don't care, it's not your fucking life
I'll be the version of me no one likes
Every time, every time, every time I close my eyes

Every time I close my eyes
Every time I close my eyes
Every time I close my eyes
Every time I close my eyes
(I see a whole lotta nothing)
Every time I close my eyes
(I really thought I'd see something there)
Every time I close my eyes
(But I see a whole lotta nothing)
Every time I close my eyes
(Nothing every time, every time)
Every time I