If I Hadn't Met You

(album: When I Close My Eyes - 2021)

If I hadn't met you
Would I be all alone
Hiding in my bedroom
Living life through a phone
I'm scared
Of everything and everyone
Everything I haven't done yet
My head is in its own

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone cold most evenings
I hit the bleachers instead of playing
Cause I gave up when it got frustrating
But then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that go in your head
And out of everybody else that I've met
It's you

You, if I didn't have you
I don't think id even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think id be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go go

If I hadn't met you
Would I lie through my teeth
Hiding all the rest, you
Got the best part of me
I'm scared
Of letting anybody get
Close enough to have regrets
I get if you wanna go

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone cold most evenings
I hit the bleachers instead of playing
Cause I gave up when it got frustrating
But then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that go in your head
And out of everybody else that I've met
It's you

You, if I didn't have you
I don't think id even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think id be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go go

My bed is so tired of me
All the demons in my head are lying to me
There's a war between myself and who I'm tryna be
Now I don't know how to function in society

One two three medications
Just so I can have a fucking normal conversation
I sleep better when I've been sedated
I'm scared of everybody else and I hate it

You, if I didn't have you
I don't think id even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think id be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go go