This A Message

(album: Psycho Therapy - 2020)

So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I got some questions, it's all in advance
Why is life depressing, then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile, so I can feel like a man

Because I'm trapped inside my mind of who I am, and who I choose to be
Now I just abuse the weed to hide from what I truly see
I looked inside my mirror, hoping god would help me see myself
But only seen my demons screaming out that I should free myself
I'm feeling lost, feeling lonely on this twisted road
I'll fake a smile so that my parents and my sister know
That I'm alright, I'm okay, I been doing good
So don't worry I'll be fine like you knew I would
My mom will tell me that I'm great and that she's proud of me
My dad will brag to all his friends that he can count on me
The pressures here it's building up, now it's surrounding me
I'm scared to let them down, 'cause if I do, will they look down on me?
See, that's a question that a broken soul would ask himself
Like, why the fuck am I alive? Man, I should blast myself
I'm writing to music to forget I can't distract myself
From every fucking thought, I think it's time I try to ask for help

So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I got some questions, it's all in advance
Why is life depressing, then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile, so I can feel like a man
So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I got some questions, it's all in advance
Why is life depressing, then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile, so I can feel like a man

Shit, this ain't normal, I don't know what I should fucking do
I paid my dues, but still ain't figure out my fucking truth
I feel alone, but I got every single one of you
I think I take that shit for granted, dog, and I ain't wanting to
But shit happens, In such a quick fashion
My road twists so fast that my whip crashes
Except the whip is not my car, it's all my sick passions
And the roads the world, around me tryna get at them
God, you a sick bastard for putting me through the ropes
At 13, I seen my uncle with a tube in his throat
I watched my cousins lose a father, slowly losing their hope
Then asked the preacher why, and he said only you could've known
So tell me, why'd you do it?
Man, I need to say to put my mind more at ease
With all the shit you display
I know I'm not supposed to question you, but dammit, I prayed
And it seems like you don't care about a thing that I say

So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I got some questions, it's all in advance
Why is life depressing, then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile, so I can feel like a man
So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I got some questions, it's all in advance
Why is life depressing, then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile, so I can feel like a man

So this a message to all of my fans
Yes I got some questions, it's all in advance
Why is life depressing, then suddenly ends
It seems I fake a smile, so I can feel like a man