I Kinda Don't

It's kinda hard to put my finger on
What it was that made the call to call it off
I didn't even wanna believe it
I kinda thought I'd have a little more time
I'd right my wrongs and I'd apologize and we'd be fine
But I didn't and it isn't
And wanna know what really makes this hard?
You're just as sweet as everybody says you are

I kinda wanna hate you
I kinda wanna be you
I kinda wish I never had to meet you in this bar
'Cause now I see what he sees
You're everything I can't be
I can't pretend I'm over him and seeing you ain't hard
I kinda hope it works out for you both
But then again, I kinda don't

I kinda hate that I love those shoes
And how that lipstick is the perfect shade on you
It gets to me that I wanna buy you another drink
But every time his name rolls off your lips
It reminds me you're the reason mine will never be on his

And I kinda wanna hate you
I kinda wanna be you
I kinda wish I never had to meet you in this bar
'Cause now I see what he sees
You're everything I can't be
I can't pretend I'm over him and seeing you ain't hard
I kinda hope it works out for you both
But then again, I kinda don't

I was happier just putting the blame on you
Now you've gone and took that from me too

And I kinda wanna hate you
I kinda wanna be you
I kinda wish I never had to walk into this bar
'Cause now I see what he sees
You're everything I can't be
I can't pretend I'm over him and seeing you ain't hard
Oh, I kinda hope it works out for you both
I kinda hope I find the strength to let him go
But then again, I kinda don't

Ooh, ooh
I kinda don't
I kinda don't