How It Feels

(album: Foolishman - 2017)

How was I to know, how was I to know
How you'd feel?
Until you put us back, put us back
On an even keel?

(How was I to know, how was I to know)
When I tried to read the signs
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
You told me everything was fine
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
You find the problems are all mine

I can trace it back
To one evening under a diamond sky
Usual three word phrases weren't reciprocated
I had to ask why
Silence for too long (far, far too long)
Any trace of a smile in your face was gone
Jealousy, the little green eyed monster, dancing with you and me

It could have been so easy for me to see
The cracks that had appeared
If only I'd stopped to think of all the times
That you'd always feared
Other people would come into play
Eyes, lips, then bodies be swayed
And you believed that you'd been betrayed
When no such games had ever been played

You push me
By questioning my integrity
Then I push you
By dismissing your views
You push me
I can't remember how it used to be
Why push through?
Is this what love has made us do?

How was I to know, how was I to know
How you'd feel?
Until you put us back, put us back
On an even keel?

How was I to know, how was I to know
How you'd feel?
Until you put us back, put us back
On an even keel?

Now you're blind to the monster in your mind
You find some ways to convince you every time
I'm later back than I said I'm gonna be
I'm not in another lover's arms
Seduced by the charms of a person we met twice
Or a person I once said was nice
Addicted to bad ideas
Which turn your love to fears

You push me
By questioning my integrity
Then I push you
By dismissing your views
You push me
I can't remember how it used to be
Why push through?
Is this what love has made us do?

How was I to know, how was I to know
How you'd feel?
Until you put us back, put us back
On an even keel?

How was I to know (how was I to know)
How was I to know (how was I to know)
(When I tried to read the signs) (how was I to know)
How you'd feel (how was I to know, how was I to know)
(You told me everything was fine)
Until you put us back, put us back
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
(You find the problems are all mine)
On an even keel

(How was I to know, how was I to know)
When I tried to read the signs
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
You told me everything was fine
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
You find the problems are all mine

(How was I to know, how was I to know)
When I tried to read the signs
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
You told me everything was fine
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
You find the problems are all mine
How was I to know?

(How was I to know, how was I to know)
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
(How was I to know, how was I to know)
How was I to know?