I Can't Drive

(album: Loud Without Noise - 2022)

I drove my car off the bridge
Listening to radio city
When our song came on
The one you used to sing with me
Fuck it I can't drive
But I like to imagine
Put my hurt in a scene
And then see what happens

You said that it was romantic
I was in psychosis
And you left me depressed
My mother cleaned up the mess
I cried into her arms
I never cry like that
But now you're on the pills
A stranger looking back

Take it from me
I'm not looking for anybody
Take it from me
I'm not looking for anybody

I'm sick of car rides
You lied while we lay back to side
Now I'm driving and I hear you
Singing about how you got high, got high, got high
I'm not looking for anybody
I'm not looking for anybody

I turned the radio off
I'm in a car park
Off the edge of the motorway
I just go on
It's loud without noise
I think my head hates my guts
Are my shoes made of iron
So I can't get up
It's been seven months
But time's a killer
Until I saw you with her
The months felt like filler
I'm not angry, I just really thought you cared
It's only when you're drunk
You give me time to spare

Take it from me
I'm not looking for anybody
Take it from me
I'm not looking for anybody

I'm sick of car rides
You lied while we lay back to side
Now I'm driving and I hear you
Singing about how you got high, got high, got high
I'm not looking for anybody
I'm not looking for anybody

Wanna start smoking
Just to feel the rush
I liked someone who did it once
I wanna get off
This road I'm on
But I'm stuck at the wheel
It was our favourite song
I play it so I can feel
It's best not to think
I don't think of it often
Not unless I drink
My god I can't think
Am I the bad guy here?
My fuel is empty
Give it a few years
And you'll be in the back seat

Take it from me
I'm not looking for anybody
Take it from me
'Cause I'm not looking for anybody

'Cause I can't even drive
I just needed something to romanticize
My desperate life
My desperate life
My mother said it was right when she said

Take it from me
I'm not looking for anybody
Take it from me
I'm not looking for anybody