Bottled Up

(album: Chapter 4 - 2018)

Usually I turn a cheek
Usually I let it go
But I feel this burning deep
And I fear I'm set to blow
So to hell with the courtesy
Never felt it affect me so
Been about ten years, had a good run
But I'm finna have an episode
Got too much going on
Like, court dates in a week, I'm stressed
Prosecutors wanna see me rest
In a cell, oh well, and I'm eating less
On top of it all, lost my friend
And the woman that I love is leaving next
Long as I got my rap and a bed
And the lab in the back, and I breathe I'm blessed
I guess
I ain't never been one for the heart to heart
But I get a bit emotional when I've got a big show
And the God damn car won't start
Never been as happy as when I get a track done
Back to back and I'm carving art
I don't wanna ever love another like this
Cause the being away would be the hardest part
I don't wanna go, I don't wanna be
I shut down and I just don't speak
Letting y'all walk all over me
Fuck that, for the day I'm over, peace
I'm so cold, and I don't release
Do my best to be oh so sweet
I don't wanna be that dude
Guaranteed that I'm on one and won't be beat
Come on

There's not enough time in the day
To beat around the bush
Just say what you wanna say
Cause all I do is pray
Somebody's gonna fuck with me today
I've been bottling this up
And I think I'm about to break
There's not enough time in the day
To beat around the bush
Just say what you wanna say
Cause all I do is pray
Somebody's gonna fuck with me today
I've been bottling this up
And I think I'm about to break

I'm way too young to be jaded
Looking for the faith anywhere I go
Is there anybody that can tell me what I'm bottling up
And when I'ma give into the pair I grow
On the outside, I could be a lamb
But I've got the potential to be a bear, I know
What am I doing to me and why am I doing it
Am I scared that they're gonna see what dare I show
Do I really wanna bare my bones
Am I gonna let it all out
You don't wanna fuck with me right now
I'm not well, in the head, you don't want that bout
When I get enraged I'ma start to shout
That'll be the day that'll end all doubt
I'm a nice guy with a limit, better watch your mouth
And be mindful of what you spout
When I was a boy, I was mad
I don't wanna go back
Cause if that was then, this is bad
Don't know how to react
I was always used to the pen and pad
Picked up all of my slack
Now I'm like, one more problem away from erupting
And fuck it, we don't want that
That'll put me in jail again
Hell if I'ma be locked away in that cell
Cause I've got a lot to do and if I go get popped
You can bet that affects my sales
Uh, welcome to the life I live
You could probably tell
I don't really know that much about myself
And I don't get too much help

There's not enough time in the day
To beat around the bush
Just say what you wanna say
Cause all I do is pray
Somebody's gonna fuck with me today
I've been bottling this up
And I think I'm about to break
There's not enough time in the day
To beat around the bush
Just say what you wanna say
Cause all I do is pray
Somebody's gonna fuck with me today
I've been bottling this up
And I think I'm about to break