I'm Still Here

I can't believe
That I am still here
After all those years trying
To leave but never managing

I am so glad
For once that I failed
At doing something that I
Thought I wanted at the time

And now I can finally breathe for the first time
Without the night ending with me being so drunk
That I hurt myself
And wake up in a hospital
Locked in a room with no memory of what happened the night before
Before

Looking down at my body
Seeing all the scars
And the new ones I made
Driving home in your car
Not remembering a thing
But now that's in the past
And I live with these scars that show me that I'm strong
And I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

I threw out the blades
At the start of my journey
But even without self harming
Didn't stop me from hurting

And I'm slowly getting better at life
But I'm still learning
I'll be okay, I'll be alright
I'll be okay, I'll be alright

And now I can finally breathe for the first time
Without the night ending with me being so drunk
That I hurt myself
And wake up in a hospital
Locked in a room with no memory of what happened the night before
Before

Looking down at my body
And seeing all the scars
And the new ones I made
Driving home in your car
Not remembering a thing
But now that's in the past
And I live with these scars that show me that I'm strong
And I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

And now I can finally breathe for the first time
Without the night ending with me being so drunk
That I hurt myself
And wake up in a hospital
Locked in a room with no memory of what happened the night before
Before

Looking down at my body
And seeing all the scars
And the new ones I made
Driving home in your car
Not remembering a thing
But now that's in the past
And I live with these scars that show me that I'm strong
And I'm still here