Searching For A Reason

(album: Pain Paints Paintings - 2021)

Trust gets you killed, love gets you hurt
Being real gets you hated so tell me what it's worth
I done seen these people change and try to twist up all my words
I been stuck inside a maze they say that means that I'm on earth

If they wanna know my pain then they can read it in the verse
If they praying on my name, it better be inside a church in
Don't need diamonds, don't need chains, I ain't slave to all these perks
I ain't perfect but it I'm working God I swear that I'm still searching for a reason
Now I'm drowning like I'm diving off the deep end
Underwater don't nobody hear me screaming
I'm surrounded by these money hungry demons

I'm surrounded, so many fakes I stopped counting
No gravity but I'm still grounded
They can't see 'cause their vision is clouded
Man I feel like I'm walking up mountains
My hearts broke but yes it's still pounding
Lost my soul and then went and found it
I hope heaven ain't full or crowded
Hell ain't worth it, I'll scream and shout it
Don't make these people your idols
Forget 'bout all of the followers, Jesus had 12 disciples
If they tell you it's fake it's 'cause they ain't fought for survival
And when their facing the judge they still put their hand on the Bible
Got my faith like a gun and I let it off like a rifle
I'll keep speaking the truth and I do not care if it's viral
I ain't changing for nothing or getting trapped in your cycle
'Cause I know failure ain't fatal and that success isn't final
I got love for my enemies, you can check all my vitals
All the negative energy is a downwarding spiral
You can cancel me, laugh at me, call me out of my title
It won't break me or shake me
No I will not show weakness
Is this real life or am I dreaming?
Why are these times so misleading?
I don't see God but believe him
And I don't need fame, you can keep it

Trust gets you killed, love gets you hurt
Being real gets you hated so tell me what it's worth
I done seen these people change and try to twist up all my words
I been stuck inside a maze they say that means that I'm on earth

If you walked inside my shoes you wouldn't last a day
I ain't got nothing lose by having some faith
I ain't got nothing prove to people who hate
So what I'm finna do is say it again
Ey

Trust gets you killed, love gets you hurt
Being real gets you hated so tell me what it's worth
I done seen these people change and try to twist up all my words
I been stuck inside a maze they say that means that I'm on earth

If they wanna know my pain then they can read it in the verse
If they praying on my name, it better be inside a church in
Don't need diamonds, don't need chains, I ain't slave to all these perks
I ain't perfect but it I'm working God I swear that I'm still searching for a reason
Now I'm drowning like I'm diving off the deep end
Underwater don't nobody hear me screaming
I'm surrounded by these money hungry demons

Dear God
Protect us from anything that wasn't sent by you