Longevity

(album: Halloween On 47th St - 2017)

Yea
On some dice rose shit
I lost relationships with ones I'm close with
Always thought of you as the one to grow with
Never thought that I would be lonely stressing this rose shit

But I know you fade away, and I know I been away
But you don't need to replace
I'll always be here, no need to be near girl

Acting defensive and shit
Like I ain't help you through the times you hated life and shit
Like my shoulder wasn't the rest to help you fight this shit
Imma be here to help you out and share the light and shit
Fuck it I'm in it for longevity, everybody belittled you then except for me
It's alright I expected she'd be upset with me
But I don't mind I'm so persistent in when I live with me I never let it get to me
Twenty seconds in and I'm still feeling drowsy
Thirty seconds in and it's already cloudy
Free lil Bobby, free lil Shmurda, free that nigga Rowdy
Miss my moms, I miss my dukes, I miss my cousin Ally
Yea, think the unexpected
In terms of failure they all applauded I still feel neglected
You was the one that made me strong and made me feel accepted
But when you smoking it's so much I think I leave a message
I mean what's the probability, that you can go out and find somebody as real as me
I don't think that shit is easy at all
Not a lot of niggas can help you get the things and evolve
Not a lot of niggas can tell you that they there for the cause
Not a lot of niggas gon be there when you weak and you fall
Not a lot of niggas gon be there stay around and evolve when you down and you feeling that the ones gon be there at all

Yea, but now your heart deceitful
You ain't learn from your first mistakes and then you made a sequel
You telling me that you off and you said I'm dead and evil
But I done heard a lot worse come out from much better people
Feel like D Wade I carry the heat whenever the keys play
Never gave a fuck about what he say
90 on the freeway
These niggas tryna bury me these days
As momma said God gave 'em too much leeway
Way too much free space, she gotta apply the pressure for cheese sake
And keep your pockets fat I won't delude I make it three ways
And lately I been into fuck my life and let me free fade
Cause I promise it feel like an LSD maze
Shit I'm not really suicidal, but I don't mind death, I feel like death is less assured to let my mind rest
But then my fam in reality makes me snap out, but if somebody touch my family I spazz out
Cause I'm the one that [?] they gon have to grow up
When my brothers need me imma have to show up
And when my momma call me imma pick the phone up and tell her don't worry 'bout it imma pick us back up yea
That's how it goes when you was forced to grow up younger
While I was shedding tears the kids was out enjoying summer
I was walking to the money turned myself into a runner
I was only 9 years old but I was plotting on the Hummer, shit
Not for me, for my momma cause I know she like that
Got these demons on my fucking back and it's so hard to fight it
There's a spark of genius right inside you just dig deep and find it
Had to draw the future for the past but then I never-mind it
I grew up fast with a purpose
Momma told me fear no man it ain't no soft in the circus
Especially when you a nigga can't rely on those surgeons
Just remember don't sign your life away in devilish cursive

And when you come back and hear the shit that I'm saying
I hope that it sparks something inside you to keep replaying
I hope that you see the picture I painted, vivid displaying
And know that I'm 17 but I'm 30 what I'm portraying
My conversation is old cause I grew up fast and I'm blazing
I'm just a rose and I rose out the ghetto truly amazing
How you could turn something bad into good with little explaining
And everybody around you is telling you that you changing
Purple-hearted