Nervous

(album: History Of A Feeling - 2021)

Sometimes I lie
Sometimes I convince myself
That everything's fine
I'm such a good actress
When I say that I miss you, I miss you, I miss you
I think that I actually do
Then I almost forget there's so much messed up
Between me and you

If I close my eyes
I can't even see, I'm in fucked state of mind
And this can't last forever
I want the attention, I want the affection
Then you take up all of my time
And besides the sex, there's nothing left
There is nothing left

I know why I lie to myself
I'm not really looking to get healthy
I have so many perspectives I'm losing perspective
I make me nervous
I make me nervous
I make me nervous

Is it okay
That I might be using you for my own escape
I know that it's selfish
For me to expect you to understand where I've been
When you been here the whole time
As messed up as it is, can we admit it?
Can we just say it?

I know why I lie to myself
I'm not really looking to get healthy
I have so many perspectives I'm losing perspective
I make me nervous
I make me nervous
I make me nervous

I know it's fine like every other time
I know that I lie a little bit every time
Almost every time
I don't mean to ruin things
But I could say anything
Sometimes I could say anything

I know why I lie to myself
I'm not really looking to get healthy
I have so many perspectives I'm losing perspective
I make me nervous
I make me nervous

I know why I lie to myself
I'm not really looking to get healthy
I have so many perspectives I'm losing perspective
I make me nervous
I make me nervous
I make me nervous
I make me nervous
I make me nervous