Fentanyl

(album: Look What You Made - 2022)

I got some friends hooked on fentanyl
Faded but they're saying that they're sober, I don't get involved
Hard to judge if you let 'em fall
What do you say when you feel you've said it all?
And I don't wanna die yet
But I know how I get
When I'm all in my head
Wondering if I'm next
Started feeling anxious when I get too close
I've been tryna hide it better but that shit still shows
Got a demon in my pocket cause it gets me high
Everybody's tryna kill each other right outside
Should I go out too?
No, I'll just stay in my room

With all the words I never said
And things I never did
And told you I would
On all the friends I'm gonna miss
Cause they couldn't handle it

I got some friends hooked on Adderall
Faded but they say it's just to get ahead, they in control
It's not a problem if you're still productive, right?
And if it's working, who the fuck am I to judge it?
Aye, everyone depressed all pretending they aren't, like that's the new wave, so
I don't know if the ones I love are fucked up until it's too late, yeah
Some have overdosed, others don't but won't grow and die of old age
I just wish I knew what we got into before everything changed
Looking outside, I'm like, "Fuck it", I try to be part of the planning and loving society
Until I found out it's all been a lie and the primary cause of my growing anxiety
Gotta get high to be cool with the fact my generation is doomed
I don't wanna play this game, I just stay in my room

With all the words I never said
And things I never did
And told you I would
On all the friends I'm gonna miss
Cause they couldn't handle it

Stuck in my head again
With words that I never said
And things that I never did
And told you I would
The time is still better spent just thinking of friends I miss
Cause they couldn't handle it, I wish that you could
Now I don't wanna wake up when I don't know what to say
Yeah, and I don't wanna go outside, if I won't see you today
Now I don't wanna wake up when I don't know what to say
Yeah, and I don't wanna go outside, if I won't see you today

I got some friends hooked on fentanyl
Getting faded but they're saying that they're sober, I don't get involved
Hard to judge if you let 'em fall
What do you say when you feel you've said it all?