outro (the roof)

(album: confessions of a drama queen - 2021)

I climb up to the roof
To hang out with the stars
Cause they all remind me I've come pretty far
From the place that I started
Before shit got dark
Singing to Jewel in the car

I used to think it was cool
How people would say
That I am so secure, so mature for my age
Now I'm not sure it's such a good thing
Cause now that I'm older I see

If I could go back I go back to 13
Cause we all grow up faster for things that we've seen
And now that I'm here I'll try not to blink
Cause people would pay for this view
But they don't know the pain I went through
To get up to the roof

All the ones I looked up to said "keep your head down" but the world looks so clear with my head in the clouds
I know it's not right
Wishing back time
But I can't help but feel I missed out

I know for a fact I don't act 23
Cause we all grow up faster for things that we've seen and now that I'm here I'll try not to blink
Cause people would pay for this view
And I wouldn't change all the pain I went through
To get up to the roof