Not Gonna Cry

(album: Emma Steinbakken - 2019)

I know it's not supposed to be easy
Pouring out the bottled up feelings
But I didn't think it would be this hard
Walking to school with a broken heart
And the jacket around my waist feels stupid
I don't know why the hell we do this
Saying I'm sorry like I'm the one
Who's picking us apart for fun

Why am I feeling like this?
Why am I feeling like shit?
Why am I all in pieces?
I don't even need this, oh-oh
Why am I on the bedroom floor?

With paranoia and painkillers
Washing away all these feeling
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking
You're a cigarette and I'm quitting
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you

You smell like cigarettes and perfume
No one fucks me up like you do
And maybe you thought I would play along
I rather be dancing on my own
Do you really think that I'm stupid?
Of course I heard all the rumors
But all of the grenades you threw
They just made me bulletproof

I'm done with feeling like this
Done with feeling like shit
Done with being in pieces
I don't even need this, oh-oh
I'm done with laying on the floor

With paranoia and painkillers
Washing away all these feeling
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking
You're a cigarette and I'm quitting
But I know, I know, I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you