On The Surface

(album: Ryan Amador - 2013)

On the surface
The new life is the same
With different meaning
And dried up new terrain
And I could tell you
That I've been doing just fine
But I'd be lying

We're drawing circles
Our shit's still on repeat
Jumping hurdles
But you're still leaving me
And I could do it without you
But I can't say what I'd be going through

Cause the day you left
Was the last one I could know
But the body rises
From its ashes in the snow

And to all of these survivors
Who've lasted through the years
I ask you now to help me
Strip away unwanted fears
And give me strength to stand this
And courage to obey
Empower me with wisdom
That can take away my pain
Cause you know that I'm out here asleep
And you have the only love to awaken me
There's no need to cry I'm too weak, tired, and lonely

On the surface
I can make it seem
Like I'm A Okay
But I can't get better with you watching me
I know you're looking closely
Like a spy with a broken eye
Just remember I'm trying to find a better topic
Than the lack of you and I

And I can't remember
The way your skin felt touching me
Or your moody temper
That had be pleading down on my knees
Or the stories you would tell
To a crowd so eagerly
I wish they still could be a part of me

And I know in my heart
There's a piece missing I think
But did you lose it when you
Dove in and started sinking

And to all of these survivors
Who've lasted through the years
I ask you now to help me
Strip away unwanted fears
And give me strength to stand this
And courage to obey
Empower me with wisdom
That can take away my pain
Cause you know that I'm out here asleep
And you have the only love to awaken me
There's no need to cry I'm too weak, tired, and lonely
There's no need to cry I'm too weak, tired and lonely