Tourniquet

(album: Good Grief - 2023)

Think I might try to try to sail off the edge of the world
But I'll probably make one big great circle the way that I always do
Yeah, "sometimes you get so close to someone, you end up on the other side of them"
I'm comforted it's not the end, it's just a loop

Building collapse, pressure outweighs the pain
I don't feel sad, I don't feel anything
Only will when the blood returns
I'd rather be numb than know how bad I'm hurt

So I'll keep the tourniquet on

Take it back, shove it down
You can get a new car but can't forget the way that it sounds
Or feels to crash, high speed impact
No police, the first person I called was my dad
Now I'll walk myself down the aisle
I'll be the parent and the least favorite only child
Laundry days, 2pm
Some people die before they're dead

Building collapse, pressure outweighs the pain
I don't feel sad, I don't feel anything
Only will when the blood returns
I'd rather be numb than know how bad I'm hurt

So I'll keep the tourniquet on
I'll block it out and off
Cause I don't need anyone, I don't need anyone, I don't need anyone at all
If I keep the tourniquet on

I spend every night with the TV on, I can't bear to be alone with my own thoughts
Maybe we always start right back where we end, don't know if I'm God or if I'm sisyphus
Would my suffering be worth it then? Monetizable? immortalized in a myth?
If there's no good thing or evil that people won't one day forget
Oh, I'll keep on the tourniquet

I'll keep the tourniquet on
I'll block it out and off
Cause I don't need anyone, I don't need anyone, I don't need anyone at all
So I keep the tourniquet on