returner

(album: angel in realtime. - 2022)

Made my peace with it, with the higher power
The years in the spotlight were good to me now
But in comes the chance of a lifetime to quietly see myself out
When the place was alive with it and thick with drums
And you'd barely believe in what I would become
And the coldest receptions would await me away
And at home

The seven inside would wait in wild disdain
Give it unkindly to my face
But the drain at the start pierced the veil of the artifice
But I was too young to restrain
(Mmm)
'Cause every starfire of invention thinks
That they are misunderstood
(Mmm)
But in the crossfire of resentment, I was
Giving back when I could
But chemical highs and clear blue skies await
Honey gold lightness in my face
Couldn't take it farther if I strained it any harder
But I got no right to complain

(Gimme some time)
To work out my feelings
(Gimme some time)
I'll define what I need
(Gimme some time)
'Cause it's a plain and indestructible thing
That you don't get shit for free
Uh-uh

I'm only in it for the money
I'm only in it for the change
I'm not in it for the glory
I'm not in it for the friends with the form or the fame
The innocence died in waves of quiet things
Nothing feels right or quite the same

It's great at the start
But in the end, at the heart it's a job
And a choice that I made
I strayed into darkness the day after Armistice
Strayed into darkness and I stayed
Went straight into darkness the day after Armistice Day

Send my regards to the shapers of the industry
It's highly unlikely they'll be as blatant as that
I got love for the theorists and the punks and the idealists
But let's be honest, I'm only in it for the cash
Now I live by a motto just like Assou-Ekotto
And it's "Fuck you and pay me"
It's line I respect
A below average shooter, I'm hardly Batistuta
But the vision and motivation I get

I'm only in it for the money
I'm only in it for the change
I'm not in it for the glory
I don't do it for parties, the awards or acclaim
The innocence dies in waves of quiet things
Then I just try to pay my rent

It's great at the start
But in the end, at the heart it's a job
And it's a choice that I made
I strayed into darkness the day after Armistice
Strayed into darkness and I stayed
Went straight into darkness the day after Armistice Day

And I feel the worst for the ones who love
The ungrateful bastard I've become
They shouldn't have to love me if they don't want
I been working hard and saving face
But I've not been in the greatest place
Think I will get better
I dunno

When I was bright and young and full of shit
I was happy in the midst of it
Anyway I'll tell the guys you said hello