Grown

(album: Sugarcoated - 2020)

Straight ahead
Don't open up the door downstairs
Leave it for the big kids
With their big heads
I'm always wrong
I'll never be the smartest one
Because I just sing songs
And I haven't lived too long

So I sit on the hardwood floor
And I breathe in and out to calm me down
'Cause I keep thinking 'bout how I'm getting older
But I thought I'd be grown by now

When did I learn
My mother's not always right
When she talks too loud
And holds me too tight?
I think a little fear's okay
Keeps you on your toes
But what if my biggest fear
Is that I'm gonna die alone?

So I sit on the hardwood floor
And I breathe in and out to calm me down
'Cause I keep thinking 'bout how I'm getting older
But I thought I'd be grown by now

'Cause I just feel, I feel like a little girl again
Wanting to be liked by all her friends
And I just feel, I feel like a little girl that's scared
Scared that her childhood will end

So I sit on the hardwood floor
And I breathe in and out to calm me down
'Cause I keep thinking 'bout how we're getting older
But we thought we'd be grown by now