Drugs And Love

(album: The Greatest Mistake Of My Life - 2021)

I still hear it when I think back. Her cry – So shrill. That night damned us all. I just sat back like a voyeur with my hands tied. It still haunts me, and to this day I am faced with this juxtaposition of guilt and pain.

Any kind of chemical romance
I will take with me to bed
Anything to drown out all the voices
Inside my head

Make me numb
with drugs and love
What'll save me from my solitude?
I've nothing left to turn to
Help me find a way to medicate

I sometimes feel like I may as well have pulled that trigger myself...

Any kind of tepid distraction
I will pour myself into
Baby I just need a little reaction
Warm like a tomb

Make me numb
with drugs and love
What'll save me from my solitude?
I've nothing left to turn to
Help me find a way to medicate

Just help me erase
The memories
Help me find a way
To numb this pain
Just something...
I've nothing left to offer you, I
I even lost myself
But I'm desperate
To never fade away

Make me numb
with drugs and love
What'll save me from my solitude?
I've nothing left to turn to
Help me find a way to medicate

But, nobody can understand what he was like. I wonder often if I'd have preferred that one night of screaming aloud, or the decades of being muffled.