Just How I Feel, Pt. 1

(album: I'll Leave The Light On Just In Case - 2019)

You will be there for the road ahead
Whether you wanna be or not
You don't wanna go out and break your neck
But it might be the only move you got
It's all you got

You're not a martyr for burning yourself at the stake
You're a fire starter learning nothing from your mistakes

We make mistakes
And I don't need to be told how you perceive my reality when I'm simply living in it
So keep your propaganda to yourself
I don't wanna hear someone else's words from you just because you once fell for it
It's so selfish
'Cause loving someone is like having a... suitcase around your neck
And every time you fall apart or fight you're throwing another brick in it
And eventually it's too heavy for you to carry 'cause it weighs you down
So you say "I'm sorry" which has no meaning, its just another sound to you

And your patients might stop writing
You might keep your victims quiet
You're broken instead

You will be there for the road ahead
Whether you wanna be or not
You don't wanna go out and break your neck
But it might be the only move you got
It's all you got

I think I was rounding up when I said you had my full attention
And I need you to like me because someday I might need your protection
I feel like it's past life regression that makes me care so much
But every day I strive to find another way to get through this stuff
I bought a Buddy Holly fake book and thought I'd learn how to play guitar
'Cause I thought someday we'd make some sense of this and go far
Like he said, "Look what happened, the money changed Kanye"
But Kanye changed the money, and now we're all striving for a fame just to feel something

And your patients might stop writing
You might keep your victims quiet
You're broken instead

You will be there for the road ahead
Whether you wanna be or not
You don't wanna go out and break your neck
But it might be the only move you got
It's all you got

(Brace yourself)
As I was lying in bed I ran this conversation through my head and it ended very differently
(For everyone)
I guess at the end of the day the future
(Who doesn't take you far)
I wanna dictate looks nothing like reality
(I wanna see you fail
Erase your hell
Your ego is only your friend
When you are dead)