I Don't Want To Go

All this time
I've been searching for something
Something to change my mind
Who am I?
Who are all these people
The crowd has left me high
But when I get to heaven
I hope I'm not alone
If I don't get to see you
Then I don't want to go
I gave up all my time
To people I don't know
I hope that heaven feels like home

I have learned
For the last time that I don't know who you are
So I
Hid my thoughts behind a song
And this guitar
And when I get to heave
I hope I'm not alone
If I don't get the see you
Then I don't want to go
I've given all my time
To people I don't know
I hope that heaven feels like home

I don't know where to run
If I'm running from myself
I thought it was about love
Not a fear of hell
I don't know what's in my mind
It's like I poisoned the well
I'm happy with my life
I'm just overwhelmed
I learned a lot about addiction
When I was chasing after a faded flame
I realized its just a decision
To enjoy something more than just
A joy of feeling OK
No place to judge
I can hardly stay awake
And I know it won't last forever
But I can't take away your pain
And I want to be a human before I'm an artist
Because love has always been the hardest
And you have to go through the ecclesiastics
Before you can find the revelations
And I know that there's no way to buy freedom
From the blackened heart of my sin
I hope
That I can just feel this one more time
Let you know that I'm feeling fine
I don't have you in my life
I'm just feeling overwhelmed
Something in my mind
Something in my mind
Like I've poisoned the well
I'm happy with my life
I just feel overwhelmed

When I get to heave
I hope I'm not alone
If I don't get to see you
I don't want to go
Love is about love
Not putting on a show