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Come a long way, the hard way
And maybe I made it too hard
Been a long fight, the wrong kind
That breaks you and leaves you unsure
Been fighting to feel like myself
Not sure that's what I want anymore
Feeling like me is probably the problem
I've had all along

I tell I everyone I got better
But what if I'm not?
It's hard to face the truth sometimes
Oh and I tell everyone it gets better
But what if I'm wrong?
It's hard to tell the truth sometimes

Am I always gonna just be, just be
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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head
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Wondering if this is as good as it gets
Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by
Telling myself it's alright?
Does it matter how hard I try?
Am I always gonna just be, just be
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I got pages and pages of documentation I keep
Looking for answers and patterns I've hidden in me
Don't need the world in my hands
Think I'd be happy with halfway content
I should grow up and shut up
I'm probably wanting too much

Oh and I tell everyone it gets better
But what if I'm wrong?
It's hard to tell the truth sometimes

Am I always gonna just be, just be
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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head
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Wondering if this is as good as it gets
Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by
Telling myself it's alright?
Does it matter how hard I try?
Am I always gonna just be, just be
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As I fade into the background,
I remember all the memories I came with
I'm meant to be ok with nobody changing around me,
I'm drowning in isolation,
But these melodies I play with
It's kept me sane again and again
When I'm sometimes taking the pain
And I tell myself I'll never be amazing
The cemetery's a playlist, of the voices of the dead
We're respecting what they said,
Especially knowing we always say

Am I always gonna just be, just be
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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head
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Wondering if this is as good as it gets
Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by
Telling myself it's alright?
Does it matter how hard I try?
Am I always gonna just be, just be
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