I'm Afraid

(album: Pug Ugly - 2022)

Fronting, they never stop
Not just sometimes, but loads of gwap
She beat they ass down, he shot a cop
When all they did was sit they punk ass down like plop
They act so fearless, they act so brave
They only acting, me I stay afraid
I've lived in fear since second grade
Afraid of life, everything above the grave
I fear my body, afraid to cough
Afraid of money and getting soft
Afraid of love, blow my head off
Let's have some cocktails, make hers a Molotov

I guess I'll never know why I feel this way
Why I feel this pain, why I'm so afraid
I guess I'll never know
I guess I'll never know
I think I've gone insane

I fear the Devil, I fear God worse
Afraid to not believe, I fear the church
I fear no pressure, afraid to burst
Afraid we might get sucker dropkicked by Fred Durst
Afraid to mean mug, afraid to smile
Afraid of clowns, but I feel I'm in denial
Afraid of black eyed kids and zombie pedophiles
I fear the dead war and catching stray projectiles
Afraid to trust her and be entrusted
Afraid to bust her some of this custard
Afraid I must hit because I lusted
Afraid I gushed early, I should have just flushed it

I guess I'll never know why I feel this way
Why I feel this pain, why I'm so afraid
I guess I'll never know
I guess I'll never know
I think I've gone insane

I'm afraid to try, I'm afraid of being tried
I'm afraid of being denied and feeling fried
I'm afraid of truth over lies, whatever that implies
I'll believe it when I see it, but I can't trust my eyes
I'm afraid of sunburns and acid rain
Afraid of cuts, gashes, slashing my veins
A liar trashing my name, sledge hammer slashing my brains
A catastrophic disaster, hijackers crashing my plane
Afraid of being alone, afraid of being together
I fear for always and ever being too dumb or too clever
And Mother Nature's mistakes, dry lakes, earthquakes, and bad weather
And knowing all there is to know and still not knowing no better

I guess I'll never know why I feel this way
Why I feel this pain, why I'm so afraid
I guess I'll never know
I guess I'll never know
I guess I'll never know why I feel this way
Why I feel this pain, why I'm so afraid
I guess I'll never know
I guess I'll never know, know, know, I'll just never know
I think I've gone insane