you don't deserve these tears

(album: closer to closure - 2022)

I think I really need a therapist
'Cause you really fucked me up
I think it's kinda funny that your mom and dad are texting me "congrats" on all my songs
I think I should be over this
'Cause it's been too fucking long
I should be forgetting you, hating you, moving on
Where did I go wrong?

'Cause you don't deserve it the way that I'm hurting
Oh, how did I end up here?
'Cause you're out there laughing
While I'm stuck here crying in the mirror
Screaming you don't deserve these tears

Maybe I should text you drunk
Try and run into your friends
See you at a party, say "you're sorry"
That you miss me and you wish we didn't end
Oh damn it, what the fuck?
I'm getting all up in my head
I know that you were shitty
Didn't treat me right
So why am I still missing you again?

'Cause you don't deserve it the way that I'm hurting
Oh, how did I end up here?
'Cause you're out there laughing
While I'm stuck here crying in the mirror
Screaming you don't deserve these tears

So why am I crying?
Why am I crying?
Tell me why am I crying
Why am I crying?