Staring At A Stranger

(album: A Beautiful Disaster - 2020)

I've came to the point, I must make a decision
This money is cool but you can't take it with you
Lord I'm just grinding and making a living
I make it so vivid with painting a picture
I look in the mirror, feel like I'm lost
I do not recognize that man at all
Started to build without counting the cost
We're all the same at the foot of the cross

And if I told you that my life's on the line
Would you give a fuck at all
And if I told you I was led by the blind
Would you believe me when I said what they saw

There's a monster inside of my head
I feel like I'm in danger
Cause every time that I look at myself
I'm staring at a stranger
Whoa whoa whoa
I'm staring at a stranger
Whoa whoa whoa
I don't recognize myself

I made it out of the mud by doing dirt my soul is filthy (uh)
Covering up the smell of all of my guilt with Gucci gilded (ooh)
Ugly truth in the mirror staring back, never looked this pretty
Finding peace by losing myself in self pity please forgive me
Feeling low, I'm trapped in a cage of expectations set too high
Fighting to live but start to get jealous of all the ones who get to die
Ready to ride, our war's inside. Picking a side, it's hard to decide
Split down the middle. The great divide, is where all my demons lie

There's a monster inside of my head
I feel like I'm in danger
Cause every time that I look at myself
I'm staring at a stranger
Whoa whoa whoa
I'm staring at a stranger
Whoa whoa whoa
I don't recognize myself

I'm staring at a stranger
I don't recognize myself