Rescue Me

(album: Self Medicated - 2020)

I put this message in a bottle and I send it down yonder
So you see what I got to say
When you from the bottom feel like the biggest problem
It's all that we got in common today

Lost one of my homies and he ain't even dead
Can't deal with 'em 'cause of something he said
Beat the case with the state and was ducking the feds
I done been on the run and I was running out of breath
Try'na run it back up 'til I run out of room in the safe
Feel like I was running in place
[?] I stay
Like I need to move outta state
Know that I knew better, knew I should do better
Swear I'm still stuck in my ways
Mama keep stressing me, ask 'bout my wrist, yeah every couple of days
I got the rest and you prob' got the best of me, that was another mistake
They don't understand I'm a fucking loose cannon that never had something to say
Shoot on site

I'm sending out an SOS, somebody rescue me
I'm in over my head and I can barely breathe
I need time to heal, I need time to grieve
I need time to kill The beast inside of me

I have been battling flesh, I give my all and it fucks with my energy
I am at war with myself, my only enemy is the inner me
It's like I'm on fire, deep in my chest that shit is burning in me
I done lost Chizzle and Chop, Mono and Pops, I'm learning to grieve
And if these tears could talk, I wonder what they would say to me
I hear Chizzle's voice in my head, "Don't let that shit fuck up your day"
I would by lying if I said these last couple years I have not been so fucking depressed
Every day that I wake up the first thing I think of is playing some Russian Roulette

I'm sending out an SOS, somebody rescue me
I'm in over my head and I can barely breathe
I need time to heal, I need time to grieve
I need time to kill The beast inside of me