Lemon

If it all were but another dream, how happy I would be
But I still see, nearly nightly, only you consuming my dreams
When I leave behind something of mine, I stop to go and find
Brushing dust from memories of you and I, put on rewind

Learning happiness is easy spent, but cannot be returned
You had taught me what I now see, as I look back and I learn
With a hidden past too dark to cast away all on my own
And without you, maybe that too, would have never turned to hope

All the hurt and the pain I found
Sinking into me, deeply now
Found that nothing could hurt me more
Than what I feel now

Even all the heartache, all that crying
Even all the hurting, like I'm dying
I remember every second with you, and I loved it, everything
Even now remaining is that bitter
Scent of lemon, that'll never leave
Waiting out the rain, I can't go home until it's clears away
Even now, you're still inside, you are my light that never fades

Tracing out the lines, your back, inside a dark so deep and blind
Every last edge of your shape then, I can still see in my mind
When I'm by myself and overwhelmed with what I can't accept
Falling down fast, from my eyes at last, my tears are all that's left

What are you even doing now?
What are you seeing all around?
Faces that I will never see
I won't know a thing

Even if you're somewhere out there, hiding
Even if you're lonely, maybe crying
Drowning in the pain, is it still hurting you just like it's hurting me?
But I'm really hoping you forget me
Please just forget it, everything
From the bottom of my empty heart, I'm hoping every day
Even now, you still remain, you are my light that never fades

Until now, I never knew
I was so in love with you
Since you had to go and leave
It's been hard for me to breathe

Like I thought, those days you stood by me
Now they seem just like a dream
But they're not, and I hope I won't forget
That one truth, since it's all I have left

Even all the heartache, all that crying
Even all the hurting, like I'm dying
I remember every second with you, and I loved it, everything
Even now remaining is that bitter
Scent of lemon, that'll never leave
Waiting out the rain, I can't go home until it's clears away
Like a single half of fruit, split into pieces where they lay
Even now, you still remain, you are my light that never fades