Astronaut

(album: Juliana Madrid - 2022)

We talked about a lapse in spirituality
We talked about dealing and death
We talked about the blind spots in humanity
To make us feel better for it
I gave him a ride to the bus stop
He asked, "Do you mind if I smoke?"
I laughed at his take in my moral stock
And he got the joke

I wonder if I was more an optimist
And wasn't so mentally ill
Would you like me more as a polar opposite
Or find something to pick apart, still?
Well, I love you like I love suburbia
And sometimes, I guess it's alright
Staying don't make me a warrior
A coward, it might

Dried up bodega flowers
Say all there is to say
I'll pack up within the hour
And crash at my cousin's place
I didn't mean to be an asshole
Maybe I was born as one
I hope you keep your glasses half-full
I hope you don't tell everyone
I hope you don't tell everyone

I'm selfish as shit and concerned with perception
How people would think of me now
A nuance in truth removed for your protection
Makes it all so one-sided and shrunk down
And if you ever meet a real astronaut
Afraid of walking on the moon
Well, he'd understand me an awful lot and why I hurt you

Arcades and happy hours
Turned up on red Kool-Aid
Don't even count or matter
It's all one big mistake
I didn't mean to be an asshole
Maybe I was born as one
I hope you keep your glasses half-full
I hope you don't tell everyone
I hope you don't tell everyone

I knew I had athletics to lie
But didn't know I'd jump so high
I knew I had athletics to lie
But didn't know I'd jump so high
I knew I had athletics to lie
But didn't know I'd jump so high
I knew I had athletics to lie
But didn't know I'd jump so high