Deep Blue Sea

(album: Subtle Meditation - 2018)

One false move and you might trip
Yeah you might slip, fall into the traps they set
It ain't a game if you thought it was
Nigga they ain't playing fair, how you think they won?
You better keep your eyes wide and your mind sharp
Keep your head on a swivel when you at war
Leaking blood in the water with the great white sharks
It gets crazy in the dark especially when you got no heart

No love, my soul cold as a icebox
The pain wore me out like a Carhartt
My paranoia kicking in, the only thing I feel is numb
I don't trust my mothers sons, I don't fuck with anyone
Think I seen too much, think I done too many drugs
8 hits of acid bugging out in the hot tub
Fantasize, bout noose round my neck until I breathe less
My sanity's on recess
All I got is regrets
All I do is regress
You can say I'm depressed
Drowning in the deep end, struggling I can't swim
Swinging for the fences but I'm feeling like I can't win
I make the same mistakes over and over, and over again, damn

One false move and you might trip
Yeah you might slip, fall into the traps they set
It ain't a game if you thought it was
Nigga they ain't playing fair, how you think they won?
You better keep your eyes wide and your mind sharp
Keep your head on a swivel when you at war
Leaking blood in the water with the great white sharks
It gets crazy in the dark especially when you got no heart

My manuscript and memoirs reads thus
"Here lies the body of a nigga that's hopeless, and basically gave up"
The cash ain't changed much
I still never dealt with all the shit that I bottled up
I'm coming loose at the seams, can't get my shit together
Live in paradise but all I see is this bad weather
Got everything I wanted but I still feel hollow
My biggest fear today is that I'll wake up tomorrow
Premonitions of death, this time I'm living is borrowed
I got all of these blessings but yet I still feel sorrow
Only person that I like to talk to is myself
Too many voices in my head, not one of them help
I used to think it was being broke so I wanted wealth
But then I finally realized I'm forever lost, this another epilogue
We'll see if I make it to the next episode
Will I stay? Will I go? I don't know

One false move and you might trip
Yeah you might slip, fall into the traps they set
It ain't a game if you thought it was
Nigga they ain't playing fair, how you think they won?
You better keep your eyes wide and your mind sharp
Keep your head on a swivel when you at war
Leaking blood in the water with the great white sharks
It gets crazy in the dark especially when you got no heart