Hesitation

Knowledge, where you been
I tell 'em I've been writing rhymes
If they only understood what's on my motherfucking mind
Can't waste no time, no I cannot waste my time
That's all the fuck that I own
I pray to God I attain what I'm dreaming
Imagine, no patience but I cannot stop

Why am I the only person that I know with a dream or purpose
Everybody else around me is a major threat
They want to infiltrate my thoughts with the negative
I said I try to block 'em out with more sedatives
I know I'm down at the moment, not accepting it
I'm broker than a motherfucker, my regret is this
I should have never tried to spit
The moment I drop out of college is constantly in my mind
I wish I could forgive myself
I said I bow my head when I'm looking in the mirror
All that I can see is fear
I couldn't comprehend the consequence that came with my decision
Maybe I was never meant to be nothing from the begging
I'm sick and tired of my living
I'm really looking to ending, my attitude is offensive
I guess that I realize that I'm actually unimportant
I'm pouring all my emotion on the page, yes darling
But everything that I deal with is making me feel hopeless
Lawd!

Knowledge, where you been
I tell 'em I've been writing rhymes
If they understood what's on my motherfucking mind
Can't waste no time, no I cannot waste my time
That's all the fuck that I own
I pray to God I attain what I'm dreaming
Imagine, no patience but I cannot stop

Lawd!
I think everyone that's got a short attention span
They never see the bigger picture like [?]
If you don't make it over night it's not happening
All your pessimistic attitude will never seep on me
I need a moment to my self, I gotta figure it out
And this shit is looking impossible, your figure is down
You try to take a nigga down with everything that you got
You act as though I couldn't see that that was really the plot
I'm living in my isolation, man, I like it a lot
'Cus I don't need nobody 'round me
Fuck it, I'll say it proudly
Guarantee I'm astounding, screaming it out loudly
Why must I do this alone
I'm out on my own
With no place that I could call home
I need a passage so I can atone
I feel like I'm dying and going to hell
I focus on my soul, I know damn [?]
Lawd
Fuck!