Never Be Mine

Lawd, alright lets do it

I'm, quiet to think of the past
Lemme reflect, all my regrets to accept
Every second I'm sitting in silence
I swear that I'm singing a song of seclusion
I felt like that was relief a word of release
I painted a picture of peace
I pray that when I am deceased
My pain will have ceased
So I can feel finally free
Anything that I would ever put up on the page
Is a problem that's all taken for granted
And if I do whatever that I really wanted
I would give you something real
But you never understand me
And imma be the greatest motherfucker
That no-one has ever known
With a real dark tone
And his home is a canvas
But he can't stand it
Living with his fears got a young nigga manic
Damn, I should be in a much better predicament
Crying for help but nobody would listen
And I need forgiveness of sins I'm insisting
The way to survive I can see my descent
I'm suppressing emotions I feel like its hopeless
Every thing is a joke it's a lie
I refuse to believe on the things that I see on the surface
It seems like its solving your problem
When you at the bottom
You don't have an option
When there is no one left to call
And I'm finding it hard to create an identity
Fairly sedated and mentally scarred
It's a mark I will carry around as a constant reminder
I wanted reciprocity I never found it
I'm living alone and severely depressed
I'm deciding to end a terrible existence
Lawd, eh

Yes Lawd
(Sigh) eh

Waking up and paranoid, terrified scream
Been a mighty long time since I had a nice dream
Every thought in my brain is so evil
I cannot deal with these ignorant people
Try to deceive me by telling your lie
What I feel is the flow and the word you presented
Get it by yourself as the way a nigga got to
Never let a motherfucker repeat and stop you
Can't be somebody that just sits and watch
Must not seem weak there's no time to think
I give you all that I am as a person
I prey you receive it as something that's positive
If i effected your life in the least
I would like to think that I am realistic
And not pessimistic irrelevant sinner
Provided the image of purer intention
By giving you love in the [?] sentence
Departed the flesh and my spirit has left
Lawd, FUCK