Ex-Prayers

(album: Ex-Prayers - 2016)

After all these years, I find myself here
Same chances, different feeling
We want what we can't have, I have nothing
I've learned to live with misery, and that's saying something

See, I've been walking on walls, I've been sleeping on ceilings
Just to explain my pain, just to justify the meaning

After all these years, I find myself here
Same chances, different feeling

We want what we can't have, andI have nothing
I've learned to live with misery, and that's saying something
But what's it saying?

I was always told to be myself, but what if I don't like myself?
What if I just feel so

Insecure, selfish, scared, ugly, embarrassed, and worthless
Permanent damage made from temporary feelings
I ask myself, was it worth it?
Everybody's happy but me, everyone has someone but me
My life is a lose, lose, lose, lose, lose situation, I lose track of time

When I think of the past
I lose my sense of direction when I think about the future
So I'm screaming out all my ex-prayers
All the bullshit that got me here

I wish I was a better person
I wish she loved me
See, it's all pretend in the end
It's all make believe

All those things I wished so hard for
I didn't need
And all the people I tried to impress
That just looked down on me