Satellites & Rearview Mirrors

(album: This Is Weird - 2020)

I can't play the sidelines
Releasing these flaws of mine
Tea leaves help my thoughts align
I need to let go
Open doors like suicide
Keeping me from living life
Tea leaves help my thoughts align
Think I'm too close to you

Satellites, rearview mirrors, and I
I can't reach for the sky
And for you at the same time
Chipped my tooth on your pride
Fill my juice up with ice
Sing your songs till I cry
What you are don't make me (Yeah)
What you know don't make life

Pick a side, pick a side, won't you? (Won't you?)
That big forehead must be good for something, don't you (Don't you)
Overthink it? (Overthink it) Well, think a little (Think a little)
You can't grasp what's out your reach if you stay in the middle (No)
If you keep living in the past, you'll have a lot of rent due (Aye)
Screw a wrench, you'll have to come up with something like Tommy Pickles
It's a sticky situation trying to change fate (Yeah)
It's like stepping on the wine and trying to make grapes
But, I'ma do it anyway (Yeah, mmm)
Even if it means that I'll be canceling my dinner dates
A room full of fumes, I'm thinking it's time to ventilate
I'm not attacking you, I'm just protecting my energy (Not attacking you)
Power level: 10, 000
But, who's counting? Thoughts flow on my pen's fountain
My youth drowned in, focusing on my intake (Yeah)
Feel like 50 Cent (Yeah), many men doubt me (Yeah)

I can't play the sidelines
Releasing these flaws of mine
Tea leaves help my thoughts align
I need to let go
Open doors like suicide
Keeping me from living life
Tea leaves help my thoughts align
Think I'm too close to you

Satellites, rearview mirrors, and I
I can't reach for the sky
And for you at the same time
Chipped my tooth on your pride
Fill my juice up with ice
Sing your songs till I cry
What you are don't make me
What you know don't make life

I know what you're saying, the saying's "Family first" (Family's first)
But lately, I want to skip holidays, seeing family hurts (Family hurts)
A fraction of what you used to be (Used to be)
Standing around the casket, but no one would read the eulogy (Yeah)
We're all on our phones in different rooms (Uh)
Shit ain't really feel like home since my mother moved (Don't feel like home), I think I'm too close to you
Love-related strangers, doing shit that we're supposed to do (Supposed to do)
But, if not for our DNA
Would we even be pretending we like each other? (What?)
My brother showed up late, and my brother don't like my brother (Nah), and I can't help but wonder (Aye)
Maybe if I get rich, I could buy time
Every year's a difference in allegiance on our sidelines
Often conflicted, though, I'd rather be ignorant
My friends asked me how the trip was, can't gather a sentence (Uh)
Shit feels a little broken at the moment, but, regardless of the trouble (But regardless of the trouble)
I say all that to say all this: I love you

I can't play the side
Think I'm too close to you
Sweet as it seems
I got to let go
Chipped my tooth on your pride
Leaves ain't freeing my mind
Think I'm too close