The Hammer

(album: Nomad - 2017)

You will never cease to seek validation
Desperation grows lower than my lowest lows
Trapped inside where I hide
You will never know, you will never ever know
Bitch

Panic sets in as I envision the abyss I've crept in
Don't come back here, turn away knowing none can go near
Memorize this strict warning from a fucking bastard
Misery lives and she will hunt you till it's all that makes sense

Another day, my friend
Into the mirror I descend
Reenact these reactions
Duplicate the appearance of passion
Act up as a weapon of distraction
When deep down my nerves strike up like matches
And I'll never leave this state of mind
I've tried. It's useless. It's useless

I remain afflicted
I remain afflicted
Forever suspicious
Of anyone that listens
Knowing well I'm nothing worth fixing
My tongue is a shovel, it dug deep
Bringing you to my level
Another day, my friend
Another day I must suffer to pretend

That this shit doesn't kill me
That I'm fine and no lover to misery
My own friends don't visit me
I know why. No one Ever wants my company
It's all there
My mirror Medusa, my master
My secret. My slave. My captor
From birth through death and forever

I won't let you walk away yet
I take your steps as a fucking threat

My warning is a fucking threat

Panic sets in as I envision the abyss I've crept in
Don't come back here, turn away knowing none can go near
Memorize this strict warning from a fucking bastard
Misery lives and she will hunt you till it's all that makes sense