Never Whole

(album: Withdrawals - 2019)

So I've been trying to make time
For better or for worse, been putting you and myself first
And I just feel so paralyzed
Been substituting feeling with a bottle so don't empathize
I just wanna be alone
I don't need no reassurance, I can do it on my own
I hope that you can truly see
I'm draining all I have so I can give you everything

If this is all you can take
If you can carry all this weight
I'll move the earth for you, for you

And I feel like a runaway
Feel like I'm never whole
Yeah, I feel like a runaway
Feel like I'm never whole

I've been trying to follow through
For better or for worse, been taking steps away from solitude
Everything is different now
I see how all the words I've said have torn me up and let you down
I just wanna take away
The fear of ever losing or the fear I'll start accusing you
Yeah, I don't wanna see the day
We walk away defeated and decide to go our separate way

If this is all you can take
If you can carry all this weight
I'll move the earth for you, for you

And I feel like a runaway
Feel like I'm never whole
Yeah, I feel like a runaway
Feel like I'm never whole
So carry my soul, I'm losing my home
I'm feeling you slip 'cause you needed me more
Been doing my best to keep moving my feet
Been pressing so hard just to hold what I dream

You know that I'm tired
Know I want to be through
With what's trying to kill me baby
Know that you're struggling too
And I know I can be
Something stronger and true
These worries just paralyze me
But I'll do this for you

'Cause I feel like a runaway
Feel like I'm never whole
Sentimental living every day
But they tell me that I'm not alone
So carry my soul, I'm losing my home
I'm feeling you slip 'cause you needed me more
Been doing my best to keep moving my feet
Been pressing so hard just to hold what I dream