Dying To Feel Alive

(album: Everything is Tenuous - 2021)

You said
"You should be proud of yourself"
Nothing to be proud about
Getting swallowed up by doubt
Too many days feeling trapped in the sheets
Too many nights feeling trashed in the streets
And I said
"This is nothing to be proud about"

I'd love to just sit quietly
Feel the sun warm (Feel the sun warm)
All the colder parts in me

I'm dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why
Dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I've been killing myself feeling more dead than alive

You said (You said)
"You've got to be kind to yourself"
Nothing to be kind about
Getting swallowed up by doubt
I love you but I'm a fuck up, you see
I spent all my life struggling to breathe
So I said (I said)
"Try and spell all my worries out"

I'd love to just sit quietly
Feel the sun warm

I'm dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why
Dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I've been killing myself feeling more dead than alive

For the first time in a long time
I'm drunk on nothing but you
(For the first time in a long time)
(For the first time)
For the first time (For the first time)
In a long time (In a long time)
I'm drunk on nothing but you
For the first time in a long time

I'm dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I've been killing myself trying to fight the reasons why
Dying to feel alive
For the longest time
I've been killing myself feeling more dead than alive