i still say goodnight

(album: i used to think i could fly - 2022)

You stopped saying, "goodnight"
That was the first sign that you were letting go
Now you don't see me the same way
You're looking at me like I'm only getting old

And I
Shoulda known
That you were only scared to be alone

I couldn't say much
I was distracted
You seemed so anxious like you had something to hide

Tell me, "it's nothing"
I don't believe you
I know that look you get when you're about to lie

I feel so stupid
'Cause I still say, "goodnight"

I always tried to impress you
Got so dressed up and no you never seemed to care
Your ridiculous expectations
Lack of validations, was never fucking fair

And I
Shoulda known
That you were only scared to be alone

I couldn't say much
I was distracted
You seemed so anxious like you had something to hide

Tell me, "it's nothing"
I don't believe you
I know that look you get when you're about to lie

I feel so stupid
'Cause I still say, "goodnight"