Make It Up As I Go

(album: Post Traumatic - 2018)

I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way
My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand
I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

Woke up this morning holding my head
Thinking last night is one I'll regret
Washing off the bad decisions, the blurry vision
The clues that I'm still a mess
Spitting out the taste I have in my mouth
Knowing what this all is really about
Knowing there's an explanation, an expiration
I gotta figure shit out

And they're asking me if I can see the darkness down below
And I know it's true, I say I do, when half the time I don't
Maybe I can't make what it may take to leave this thing behind
But I shut my eyes and cross each line and every time

I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way
My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand
I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

Waking in the dead of night, I can't sleep
Sleeping in the light of day for like weeks
Reality was out of focus, I could be hopeless
Instead I gritted my teeth
I didn't have the patience left to explain
Didn't wanna wait while nobody came
I know the path ahead's uneven
But while I'm breathing
I have to make my own lane

And they're asking me if I can see the darkness down below
And I know it's true, I say I do, when half the time I don't
Maybe I can't make what it may take to leave this thing behind
But I shut my eyes and cross each line and every time

I keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way
My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand
I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh
I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh
So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, oh-oh
I make it up as I go, as I go

Keep on running backwards, I keep on losing faith
I thought I had the answers, I thought I knew the way
My brother said be patient, my mother held my hand
I don't know what I'm chasing, I don't know who I am

So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh
I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh
So I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, oh-oh
I make it up as I go, as I go