Leave Me Behind

(album: Scrap Heap - 2022)

And maybe I could say it's the last time
But maybe I could say that I'm scared
Another melody of somebody's story
I'll finally admit I don't care
It's been years and I can feel the end is near
'Cause I'm burnt out and I'm mangled
Ready to wake up from this nightmare
Wake me up

'Fore I close the book, I always flip to the start
I'm just tryna get a look at why I'm sick of the art
It all began with a spark
But the power, fame, dollars, and change took the charge
And made me less than its parts

I didn't want it this way, I used to long for this day
Yeah, sure the money was great, but sucked me into this phase
And now the dream that I was chasing seems to chain me in place
'Cause this game, it just takes, and it takes, and it takes!

Will I rot away?
And if I say what's on my mind, will they all leave me behind?
I thought I was safe, thought that I'd see brighter days
Was I a shadow meant to fade all along?

Did I lose my way from pretending? Another suit without a soul
So many years, I thought it was ending
But it opened up and swallowed me whole
No happy ending will rise and show themselves
So I gotta reach out and write an ending, an ending for myself

'Fore I close the book, I always skip to the end
See, will I ever fall in love with making music again?
Or did I give up all my passion and friends
To run a factory line that'll just replace when I finally left? Yuh
Wanna know the day I knew nobody prayed for me?
The day somebody told me, "This ya legacy"

This is what you'll stay to be, unless you make a break
'Cause this game, it just takes, and it takes, and it takes!

It's been years, there ain't nothing for me here
I was broken and alone, but now I'm home
Will I...

Rot away?
And if I say what's on my mind, will they all leave me behind?
I thought I was safe, thought that I'd see brighter days
Was I a shadow meant to fade all along?

Will I rot away?
If I stand up and say
Say what plagues my mind?
Will they leave me
Will you leave me behind?