I'm Suicide

(album: Home Street Home: Original Songs From The Shit Musical - 2015)

I was a target and easy mark
I was the victim of an asshole patriarch
Not just your standard dichotomy
I was a virgin without virginity
I used to genderflex, I used to pray
But it was useless i was such an easy prey

Under sedation at beck and call
I was a teenage blow up love doll
Without an option, without free will
I was eleven when I got put on the pill
A well used fixture, a welcome mat
A lonely joy division laying on my back
Always a good girl, always a blade
I was a prostitue who wasn't getting paid

Our perfect little girl, we're both so proud of you
You do everything that you're told, you speak when spoken to
You make me so ashamed, you've always been a flirt
You don't think of anyone else, you don't care who you hurt
My little girl gives daddy so much pride

I'm suicide
I've just been resurrected
I'm Jesus Christ and I've bled for all my sins
I save myself from definite destruction
I'm here and I will decide
My life as suicide

Our perfect little girl
How could you do that to me?
You do everything that you're told
Six years of sodomy
You make me so ashamed
You're the one who should have gone
I gave the best years of my life to you
You left me all alone
My little girl gives daddy so much pride

I'm suicide
God's illegitimate daughter
I'm stigmata and I've bled for all your sins
I save myself from a life of a martyr
I'm here and I will not abide
My life, I'm suicide

She's suicide
That names a little creepy
She's suicide
Welcome to our tribe
She's suicide
Does she really belong here?
I'm suicide for life
My life is suicide