Drinking About You

(album: The Ryan Oakes Project - 2014)

No one's gonna love you like I do

I can't stop drinking about you
I gotta numb all the pain
I can't stop drinking about you
Without you I ain't the same
I can't stop drinking about you
I gotta numb all the pain
I can't stop drinking about you
Without you I ain't the same

You wouldn't believe, you never could see
My potential and everything I saw in me
Why couldn't you be the girl just for me
But instead you was fucking with multiple thieves
You never gave me a reason of why you were cheating
You left me so heated, you never so leaded
You acted like you were an over-achievement
And now I'm repeating the play
Late in my bed
When I feel alone and you cross in my head
You ripped me apart, now a part of me is dead
I still think of shit that I wished that I'd said
Here to digress, and let it digest
Continued to keep everything repressed
And let it compress until I'm depressed
And I snap on a track
And put in a rap all the things I confess
And I swear you had it set
You weren't right so I got up and left
You poured the poison I swallowed: regret
I couldn't expect it from you when you lack self-respect
And just know: I really hate it
You set it up, impossible to save it
I never liked my name until I heard you say it
My love took a toll now it's time to go pay it
I'm paying my dues, drunk in a club so numb
Assortments of smoke circulating my lungs, killing my brain cells 'til I go dumb
This shit gets old but I'm still so young

Now where to go, now what to do
Anything to stop me from thinking of you
I'm grabbing a case, take it straight to the face
Then I'm hitting this vape and forgetting the truth

I can't stop drinking about you
I gotta numb all the pain
I can't stop drinking about you
Without you I ain't the same
I can't stop drinking about you
I gotta numb all the pain
I can't stop drinking about you
Without you I ain't the same

All of the pain, all of the hurt
All of the change, all of the work
I thought I could keep it to myself
But honestly I'mma put it in a verse
I put you first, you put me second
What I deserved wasn't a message
Saying that 'Ryan, I'm sorry I cheated againg
And I'd lie if I said that I wasn't expecting it
The wreckage you left it was permanent
We couldn't make it through the turbulence
These other girls give me encouragement
But now I do not believe in the permanence
What do I do, cause I can't feel
I can't sit down cause I can't sit still
I'm worried that every person that comes into my life
Would be fake when I thought they were real
Ain't got no trust, everyone lies
Patiently waiting to see a demise
They would rather see me fall than to go get it all
But at least I went out and I tried
What's on your mind, when you listen to these tracks
Do you think it's funny I think I can rap
Do you ever stop and regret what has passed
Do you think that if you were loyal we'd last
Well now that it's all over bitch I'm moving on I said it
When I said I fucking hate you girl I hope you know I meant it
Cause the only thing you ever did was make me look pathetic
Now it's up to me to make it to make sure that you regret it

I can't stop drinking about you
I gotta numb all the pain
I can't stop drinking about you
Without you I ain't the same
I can't stop drinking about you
I gotta numb all the pain
I can't stop drinking about you
Without you I ain't the same
No one's gonna love you like I do, I do
No one's gonna kill you like I do, I do