PLAGUE

(album: SLUMBERLAND - 2021)

Please save me
Don't let my anxiety erase me
All my demons coming out to face me
I keep on running so they never take me
This daydream
It plagues me
Everything is blurry and it's hazy
The sun ain't shining, everything is shady
Why does everyone I love betray me?
It changed me

Look, I been getting high to get above all the clouds
That still surround me even when I walk on the ground
The blood is rushing to my head like I'm upside down
It's straight throbbing, feel like it just took eight rounds
My ears ringing in the silence, they won't turn down
When it gets quiet, that's when everything gets too loud
They say that home is where the heart is, I still skip town
'Cause every time I get too close man I feel pinned down
Dissociation always down to come and fuck up my memory
At least I went and forgot the fucked up things people said to me
I been locked inside my head for what feels like it's a century
Giving out an arm and leg and every other extremity

I'm losing the fight now
I need a light now
I'm outta energy
And it's cutting the lights out
I need a lighthouse
I'm scared for my life now
I'm off the deep end
And I'm worried I might drown

Please save me
Don't let my anxiety erase me
All my demons coming out to face me
I keep on running so they never take me
This daydream
It plagues me
Everything is blurry and it's hazy
The sun ain't shining, everything is shady
Why does everyone I love betray me?
It changed me

The present is a gift and I wish that I was there
But I been stuck inside the past and all my older affairs
It's that or worried 'bout the future while I'm shooting the flairs
And the distress calls to see if anybody really cares
I'm sick as fuck of waking up and going through all the motions
It's getting harder to be happy, I don't show no emotion
I wonder what happened to me, I used to live in the moment
Now I'm distracted by the fact that I'm still hopeless and broken
I'm spending nights inside a room, I'm wide awake with the shakes
I'm thinking 'bout my insecurities and shit that it takes
I tell myself that I'm a martyr and this shit is my fate
'Cause I ain't go through hell for heaven to stop me at the gates, oh

I'm losing the fight now
I need a light now
I'm outta energy
And it's cutting the lights out
I need a lighthouse
I'm scared for my life now
I'm off the deep end
And I'm worried I might drown

Please save me
Don't let my anxiety erase me
All my demons coming out to face me
I keep on running so they never take me
This daydream
It plagues me
Everything is blurry and it's hazy
The sun ain't shining, everything is shady
Why does everyone I love betray me?
It changed me