Not Enough

(album: Outline In Color - 2010)

I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
I'm not enough

Between my heart and my head
There lies a great divide
In which my future's dead
But now my past won't die

My higher power said, love is where you left it
Back in the home, where I should have left my wrists slit
I'm always left behind, bipolar state of mind
I bloom into the high, till all these memories collide
Dead to rights, I've got the ache in spades
I showed you all of my colors
In every single fucking shade, yeah

And I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
No, I'm not enough

I was a sensational fiend
Living a breakable dream
I was talking to God
And testing my faith
I stoke the flame
To try and find some grace

My higher power said, love is where you left it
Back in the home, where I should have left my wrists slit
I'm always left behind, bipolar state of mind
I bloom into the high, till all these memories collide

And I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
No, I'm not enough

So forget me when I'm gone
'Cause all that ever mattered
Were these fucking songs
I dance the thin line
Between chaos and kindness
What scum I was
Hateful and mindless

I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
(No matter how I try)

And if there's anything that I have learned
(I'm not enough)
I am the one who loves to be burned
(I'm not enough)
I fetishize, self sabotage
(Not enough)
Shut your eyes, wait for applause

And I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
No, I'm not enough